Friday, September 28, 2012

Stringing Me Along

About a week ago I received a package.

You wanna know what was inside?

My insulin pump! (And accessories...)
The only down side is I have to take a pump training class before I can use it.

And the soonest they can see me is October 5th.  

And since that happens to be a Friday and the doctors don't want you getting started on a pump over the weekend, I can't officially begin using it until Monday, October 8th... after a "follow up" appointment. (To what???)

That means that by the time I'll actually get to use my pump, it will have been sitting in a box taunting me for 3 weeks.

The mind games are killer, people!  

That is all.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


According to Greek mythology, Sisyphus was a king who received the punishment of rolling a large boulder up to the top of a hill, only to watch it roll back down again.  He had to repeat this task everyday for the rest of eternity.

Some days I feel like Sisyphus.

Every once in a while I'm reminded of how hard motherhood is.  One minute I'm feeling super capable and on top of the world, and the next I'm feeling frustrated and overwhelmed-- like I've taken one step forward and two steps back.

This little cutie has been a recent source of frustration.  She has decided that she doesn't need naps anymore but I wholeheartedly disagree!  In fact, anyone within 50 feet of her at 6:00pm would also disagree.  It's not her fault that her naptime happens to be right when we're supposed to pick Kylie up from school so she gets off schedule.
Speaking of school, Kylie got her first behavioral note sent home today.  Not a huge deal-- she wasn't listening very well.  Unfortunately, I learned about that little fact after I took her to McDonald's for a special lunch.
And while kids will be kids, I'm tired of cleaning up their messes all day long.  Actually, it usually doesn't bother me that that's part of my job description, but this week I'm just not feeling it.

And don't get me started on the bickering...

I am SO exhausted but I have no excuse to be.  It's not like I'm that busy.  But for some reason I just can't seem to find any energy.  I'll sleep in, thinking that will do the trick, but by 1:30 I have to nap (which is why it's super frustrating that Summer is currently refusing naps).  I have a doctor's appointment on Friday to see what's up.  I'm kind of afraid that he'll say, "Well, we ran some tests and it turns out you're just lazy."  :)

Trying to work up the energy to play with my kids is perhaps the largest boulder of all, and each morning I realize that I have to push that boulder up the hill again.
The kids are very understanding and they don't seem to have any problem going on without me, but it breaks my heart when Kylie will say something like, "Mommy, will you come outside with me?  You can sit in a chair and just watch me play..."
I'm glad that my kids want me to be close to them, despite my weaknesses and shortcomings.
(Do you think Kylie wanted me to sit by her?)

As you can probably tell, it's not exactly rainbows and butterflies around here this week, but it'll get better.  It always does.

In the meantime, I'll stock up on some chocolate.  Lots and lots of chocolate....

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Welcome, Fall

Summertime is officially coming to a close.  It's been SO fun visiting parks, going swimming, having spontaneous play dates, and playing outside until sundown.  But, all good things must come to an end, right?  Welcome, Fall :)

Monday, September 17, 2012

Tour Guides

It's nice having family only 4 hours away because it means we get to see each other often.  My parents and my younger brother drove down for a weekend visit, so of course we took them to all of our favorite places.  First: Coxhall Gardens.

I really enjoy this place because it has everything: a mini village/sand area for kids, wide open grassy areas for sports, and these gorgeous views.
The winding path around the park leads you to an amphitheater where various shows and performances are held. Very cool.

Kylie had soccer practice and a game while my family was visiting.  It's been fun to watch her come out of her shell a little bit.

Kylie may not be the best player on her team, but she is an EXCELLENT teammate.  She is always the first one to give a high five or an encouraging word.

 And I think her teammates dig that about her :)

 As always, we tried to make the most of our down-time too.  In preparation for the Michigan State football game, Kramer wrote this... or did he???
We took a little walk in downtown Carmel, which is always lovely.  I took my dad and Kramer to this frozen yogurt place where you do everything yourself -- select your ice cream flavor (and amount), choose from about 30 toppings, and weigh your creation :)

There are a ton of realistic looking statues downtown.  Summer just couldn't figure out why this girl wasn't moving.
Our last major stop was the Canal Walk in downtown Indianapolis.  I know I've blogged about this place several times but it's because going there never gets old!

Summer rode in style...

Towards the end of the canal we reached our "real" destination.  A certain someone was excited to get inside.
I LOVE college sports.  I have so much admiration for people who can manage to be equally dedicated to both academics and sports.  I also think teachers should get millions of dollars instead of professional athletes, but I digress.

In one room there was a bunch of information about each sport, including spotlights on certain inspirational athletes.  This was just one that I found in the rowing section:
They had a mini-gymnasium that pointed out spots on the floor where athletes made game-winning shots.

 Check out Kylie's impeccable form in the starting blocks.
We went to church together on Sunday and then everyone had to head back to MI.  We loved having them here and look forward to Christmas when we can see them again!

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Soccer Star

You may recall that Josh coached a youth soccer team last spring.  The girls and I spent many Saturdays attending the games, which we loved.  Kylie especially showed interest in the sport so we decided to sign her up for soccer this Fall.  Josh and I were giddy as we bought her all the gear she would need for her very first sport.
Check out those shorts!
It seemed like a win-win for everybody.  Kylie loved her first practice (the frequent water breaks kept the kids focused and excited to play)...
... and I thoroughly embraced my role as a "soccer mom."
OK, it's not all fun and games being a soccer mom.  I mean, someone has to keep the little ones off the field :)
Then it was time for Kylie's first game.  Since the kids are so young, the kids play 3 on 3 for only 5 minutes at a time, and there's no goalie.  It's a great set-up for keeping kids engaged.
During Kylie's first 5 minute turn, she started out great... 

...until the other kids tried kicking the ball too.  After about 3 minutes of chasing the ball, she stopped and just pouted.  She came over to the sideline and said, "Mom, soccer's hard."  It really frustrated her that others wouldn't just let her kick the ball by herself.  Try explaining to a 4-year-old that it just doesn't work that way... now that's hard!
After awhile she wouldn't even sit on the sidelines because the coaches kept asking her if she'd like to go back in and play.  

I thought, How can this be???  She was so excited about playing!

Anytime I mentioned the idea of going back in, she'd melt all over again.
In fact, she seemed perfectly content to just sit on the sidelines.  Normally I'd be cool with that, but I have three problems with that: (1) Her team is counting on her, (2) I want her to understand the importance of finishing what you start, and (3) soccer is expensive :)
So I did what any parent would do: I bribed her.  I told her that if she would play, I would buy her a sno-cone after the game.

Apparently I should have mentioned how long she needed to play, because after about 30 seconds she came back out and said, "OK, ice cream time!" *sigh*  I hate being hustled by a 4-year-old.  And as you can tell, she didn't even like it.
SO... the following week she had another practice, but it was also picture day.  She refused to get her picture taken, individually or with her team.  And then she refused to practice.  So we took our own picture at home.
This week, I expected the absolute worst.  I was fully prepared to bribe her (again) but it wasn't even necessary.  As soon as we got to the field for her game today, she picked up her ball and warmed up with her team... with no encouragement from me!  

And then she had a fantastic game!  I wonder if drawing parallels between school and soccer had anything to do with her change in attitude and self-confidence.  Her teacher refers to her students as "shining stars" and her soccer team is called the "Golden Stars."  We also told her that the 2 rules we gave her for school (listen to your teacher and HAVE FUN) also apply to soccer.  
Whatever the reason, she overcame her fears today and I'm so proud of her!